Adam/Eve

1co 15:45 And so it is written, The first man Adam was made a living soul; the last Adam was made a quickening spirit.

1co 15:46 Howbeit that was not first which is spiritual, but that which is natural; and afterward that which is spiritual.

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15:47 The first man is of the earth, earthy: the second man is the Lord from heaven.

1co 15:48 As is the earthy, such are they also that are earthy: and as is the heavenly, such are they also that are heavenly.

1co 15:49 And as we have borne the image of the earthy, we shall also bear the image of the heavenly.

1co 15:50 Now this I say, brethren, that flesh and blood cannot inherit the kingdom of God; neither doth corruption inherit incorruption.

As is the earthy, such are they also that are earthy.

so, you who claim to already be in the image of God, you think that God is earthly?

You think He is a dust body?

then you think you will not be resurrected into a better image?

Adam was first. then Eve! Eve is the spiritual one.

Adam is the carnal one.

It shall be LIGHT IN THE EVE..ING TIME.

SEE THAT? Eve. Evening time.

just think: Adam was first… mourning time. to mourn. right the opposite of Eve. Even…time.. light.

a new beginning; a spiritual body. Eve is the tree of LIFE.

abomination of desolation

The Abomination of desolation.

I have known this a little already, but never as God now revealed it to me.  I awoke from a nap and was thinking about my studies that I am now doing in Daniel 8.  Like a flash of lightning, so quick, God revealed it to me.

I pray some of you can see this glorious revelation.

I had just seen that the Ram standing before the river is Adam.  Yes, that is right, and I never thought of that before.

But in studying Strong’s meaning of those words,  I could see clearly that the Ram is Adam.  The goat that came from the west, and smote that ram, is Jesus.

See, West does not mean what we think of as west direction.

None of those words mean what we think and therefore we cannot see the truth.

The way the goat smote the ram was by how he destroyed their DAILY SACRIFICE OF ANIMALS.

Just Wow!.

When Jesus gave himself as the one and only perfect sacrifice for sins that God has ever or will ever 

accept, HE defeated Adam’s animal sacrifices.

God will not allow them to sacrifice tons of animals now for sin.  That was Adam’s thirst for blood.  But God never told him to do that.  Isaiah 1 and 66.

Now another great revelation that God just opened up to me.

Adam has deceived the whole world into thinking that Jesus is the antichrist.

See, It is Jesus who now sits in the temple of God, showing himself to be God.  Why?  Hebrews 1.  God set Jesus on the throne of God, after his perfect obedience to God and told angels and everyone to now worship his Son.

God himself called Jesus, God.

So, this infuriated Adam because He lusts to be worshiped as God and God never placed him there.

So Adam/satan/serpent, has taught the world lies forever to cheat God of his own worship.  When you keep holidays, and other idols, you are worshiping Adam/satan.  So you defy the true God with your idols.

I have warned people of this for 70 years.  It goes unheeded.  But in the end you will see that you worship the devil and call Jesus the antichrist.  Are you not all still looking for that abomination of desolation to come, and say he is God, and do you not think it will be antichrist?  Sure you do.

But the crucifixion of Jesus is the very thing that you think is still supposed to happen.  That is the abomination of desolation.  It made old satan/adam desolate.   It totally did away with their daily sacrifice!

Glory to God.

By:  Jo Smith…..  July 8, 2023

perdition

perdition

 I am studying still in Daniel.  I am trying to get hold of cp 8 and 11.  they, to me, are the hardest in all scripture.

I am concentrating right now on this:  see if you can get anything on it:

John 17:12While I was with them in the world, I kept them in thy name: those that thou gavest me I have kept, and none of them is lost, but the son of perdition; that the scripture might be fulfilled.

My thought:  God did not give any of the OT people to Jesus.  ever think of that?  I did not till today.

Hebrews speaks of Moses being a servant over his house.  I say that means the law folks.

Then there was the kings.  and before that the prophets.  and before them the judges and before that Adam.

Now seems to me that God only gave to Jesus the ones in the NT who obey the gospel.  

But then he says he lost one of them.  the son of perdition.

this word, perdition, is not one time used in the OT.

I know most folks say that is Judas.  and it may be.  but I am thinking it must also include others.

I need this answer for something that has me stumped in cp 8,.

If you are anyone else gets something on this, I need to hear it.

Oh, I just looked back at my scriptures and the very next verse gives this answer: Philippians 1:28 And in nothing terrified by your adversaries: which is to them an evident token of perdition, but to you of salvation, and that of God….. see this here….it is showing that those who are adversaries to the true Christians or ministers are set for perdition. they then, would also be sons of perdition….. what think ye? I knew in my heart it had to be more than just one person.

as we have seen all through the Word, none of these words, ‘one’, Christ, man, and even God, means just 1 being. so also son of perdition must be an entire group of folks who went back on Jesus.

ok, going back to my scriptures, it is coming clear: 2 Thessalonians 2:3 Let no man deceive you by any means: for that day shall not come, except there come a falling away first, and that man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition;…… this is what has tripped up the world into thinking there will be a 1-man antichrist. not so. cannot be. already in the world are many antichrist. so here it is showing that there will be a big falling away…..meaning many people falling into the perdition condition. so all of them are THE SON OF PERDITION. they are all against Jesus and therefore will open up the thing in cp 8 that I needed to see.

all of these perdition folks had at one time claimed to serve Jesus. that is their Mark.

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aw, here it is, very clear now…… 1 Timothy 6:9 But they that will be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and hurtful lusts, which drown men in destruction and perdition….. see this is further description of those who are SON OF PERDITION….. I KNEW IT. I KNEW IN MY HEART IT COULD NOT BE JUST 1 MAN OR PERSON. so then these all would be the he-goat in cp 8. I prayed for God to show me and just now he is showing me.

I will have to go back and copy and paste all of these answers to my messages. just writing this in spurts. did not expect this when I wrote the first one up there. see, this is how God teaches me. I had no idea about this when I wrote the first post here. This is why ‘perdition’ is not in OT scripture. I puzzled about this when I first saw it. But now it is clear….see?  it is those who fell AWAY FROM JESUS and went back to the world and betrayed Jesus as Judas did. he, Judas, is the beginning of this ‘kingdom’ of son of perdition.

Oh my goodness!!! the very next verse proves what I just said. I knew none of this when I began this thread:….look…. Hebrews 10:39 But we are not of them who draw back unto perdition; but of them that believe to the saving of the soul……. This is proving that it is the DRAWING BACK THAT CAUSES THEM BE SONS OF PERDITION. those who once knew Jesus and then fell away. see then what a horrible lie and deception it is to say ‘once saved, always saved’. this lie will lead billions to perdition.

oh my goodness, again!!! look at this….how people are so cheated who do not have the anointing teaching them….this is so exciting….I am getting this now as I write:

 2 Peter 3:7 But the heavens and the earth, which are now, by the same word are kept in store, reserved unto fire against the day of judgment and perdition of ungodly men…. look Peter is calling the NT the heavens and earth that are now….. beginning with Jesus…. they are the ones who are reserved unto fire and perdition of ungodly men…… it is those who turned or fell away from Jesus, after having made a start with him.

look….. look at this…. my goodness, such revelation: Revelation 17:8 The beast that thou sawest was, and is not; and shall ascend out of the bottomless pit, and go into perdition: and they that dwell on the earth shall wonder, whose names were not written in the book of life from the foundation of the world, when they behold the beast that was, and is not, and yet is….. this?…. it is showing that the BEAST is those who knew Jesus and went away from him. fell back to law and sin. they came out of the bottomless pit – whore church …. and went into PERDITION. see, the churched folks, going on in their sins. they are the son of perdition. glory. God just gave it to me.

 Now I think cp 8 and 11 will clear up. Hope tweety is reading this.

and now the final verse on this word: Revelation 17:11 And the beast that was, and is not, even he is the eighth, and is of the seven, and goeth into perdition….. see it is showing that out of the seven harlot churches comes a full united beast, the eighth , the son of perdition. wow and double wow.

all of the above shows how I can get much more by studying here on the computer, where I can line up all the verses about one word or phrase. when you do that you can see the revelation of it much more than just reading straight through a chapter.

just now had this thought: hell, then, would be where OT folks went when they died outside faith in God. Lake of fire is where son of perdition, or those who turned away from Jesus go when they did. been a puzzle to me a long time. Now I see it. it is much worse to reject or turn away from Jesus, since he died to save us, then to be lost in the OT.

By: Jo Smith July 7, 2021

The Great Image

The Great Image

Daniel 3: 31 Thou, O king, sawest, and behold a great image. This great image, whose brightness was excellent, stood before thee; and the form thereof was terrible.

32 This image’s head was of fine gold, his breast and his arms of silver, his belly and his thighs of brass,

33 His legs of iron, his feet part of iron and part of clay.

34 Thou sawest till that a stone was cut out without hands, which smote the image upon his feet that were of iron and clay, and brake them to pieces.

35 Then was the iron, the clay, the brass, the silver, and the gold, broken to pieces together, and became like the chaff of the summer threshingfloors; and the wind carried them away, that no place was found for them: and the stone that smote the image became a great mountain, and filled the whole earth.

I know it will sound crazy to everyone….but God showed me something in this:

That image is Jesus.

He was in the image of sinful man… Romans 8.

See, he was partly strong and partly broken.  filled with the Holy Ghost and yet still human.

see that?

Inside him was the gold, silver and yet also clay.

The stone that was cut out of the mountain, of humanity, without hands, smote this image and became a glorious kingdom that filled the world.

That is the RESURRECTED CHRIST.

That inner anointing of God, His Holy Spirit, smote that outer image and did away with it.  glory.

He then became king over this earth.  Yet he has not taken that throne now.

He is still conquering;  still on the throne of God in heaven.

Jesus was also of the law and yet grace. brass, iron, (law) and clay (human)

see that Neb. made the same mistake most folks make…. he took it to the flesh…worshiped and served the creature (man) more than the creator (God). So the man had to be changed. Do not worship the man; worship the Christ.

Daniel showed him a type. SAID THIS IS YOU. so the king made the mistake of thinking it was himself, and set up a man-made image to be worshiped. sound familiar? yep, some say, I am god. even I am the only god you will ever see. such deception. But see, Daniel knew this was not the answer. It was the Christ in the man.

people today still worship that iMAGE. branham; pastor; self; others. it trips them up.

smiting the image is the crucifixion of Jesus.

isn’t this Jesus?… 37 Thou, O king, art a king of kings: for the God of heaven hath given thee a kingdom, power, and strength, and glory.

isn’t this Jesus?… 38 And wheresoever the children of men dwell, the beasts of the field and the fowls of the heaven hath he given into thine hand, and hath made thee ruler over them all. Thou art this head of gold.

isn’t this what Jesus is going to do?… 40 And the fourth kingdom shall be strong as iron: forasmuch as iron breaketh in pieces and subdueth all things: and as iron that breaketh all these, shall it break in pieces and bruise.

this is showing that the natural man had to be done away with so the Christ can take control or rule: 41 And whereas thou sawest the feet and toes, part of potters’ clay, and part of iron, the kingdom shall be divided; but there shall be in it of the strength of the iron, forasmuch as thou sawest the iron mixed with miry clay.

42 And as the toes of the feet were part of iron, and part of clay, so the kingdom shall be partly strong, and partly broken.

43 And whereas thou sawest iron mixed with miry clay, they shall mingle themselves with the seed of men: but they shall not cleave one to another, even as iron is not mixed with clay

this is showing the changing from the natural to the spiritual: 44 And in the days of these kings shall the God of heaven set up a kingdom, which shall never be destroyed: and the kingdom shall not be left to other people, but it shall break in pieces and consume all these kingdoms, and it shall stand for ever.

45 Forasmuch as thou sawest that the stone was cut out of the mountain without hands, and that it brake in pieces the iron, the brass, the clay, the silver, and the gold; the great God hath made known to the king what shall come to pass hereafter: and the dream is certain, and the interpretation thereof sure.

chapter 3 shows the setting up of the image of man, or the lifting up of flesh and the setting up of different denominations. out of this came persecutions of all who would not bow to this image of man. It is crystal clear.

4 Then an herald cried aloud, To you it is commanded, O people, nations, and languages,

5 That at what time ye hear the sound of the cornet, flute, harp, sackbut, psaltery, dulcimer, and all kinds of musick, ye fall down and worship the golden image that Nebuchadnezzar the king hath set up:

6 And whoso falleth not down and worshippeth shall the same hour be cast into the midst of a burning fiery furnace…… this shows the forced worshiped of man’s denomination, obey us or be killed. dark ages.

this shows the victory and setting up of the kingdom of Christ as the resurrection occurs: 25 He answered and said, Lo, I see four men loose, walking in the midst of the fire, and they have no hurt; and the form of the fourth is like the Son of God.

26 Then Nebuchadnezzar came near to the mouth of the burning fiery furnace, and spake, and said, Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, ye servants of the most high God, come forth, and come hither. Then Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, came forth of the midst of the fire.

27 And the princes, governors, and captains, and the king’s counsellors, being gathered together, saw these men, upon whose bodies the fire had no power, nor was an hair of their head singed, neither were their coats changed, nor the smell of fire had passed on them.

28 Then Nebuchadnezzar spake, and said, Blessed be the God of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, who hath sent his angel, and delivered his servants that trusted in him, and have changed the king’s word, and yielded their bodies, that they might not serve nor worship any god, except their own God.

29 Therefore I make a decree, That every people, nation, and language, which speak any thing amiss against the God of Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, shall be cut in pieces, and their houses shall be made a dunghill: because there is no other God that can deliver after this sort.

30 Then the king promoted Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, in the province of Babylon.

chapter 4… this shows at first, the book of Acts glorious move of God,,, then the cutting off the branches of that tree…. killing the apostles and early Christians…then setting up the beast church of seven churches in Rev: 10 Thus were the visions of mine head in my bed; I saw, and behold a tree in the midst of the earth, and the height thereof was great.

11 The tree grew, and was strong, and the height thereof reached unto heaven, and the sight thereof to the end of all the earth:

12 The leaves thereof were fair, and the fruit thereof much, and in it was meat for all: the beasts of the field had shadow under it, and the fowls of the heaven dwelt in the boughs thereof, and all flesh was fed of it.

13 I saw in the visions of my head upon my bed, and, behold, a watcher and an holy one came down from heaven;

14 He cried aloud, and said thus, Hew down the tree, and cut off his branches, shake off his leaves, and scatter his fruit: let the beasts get away from under it, and the fowls from his branches:

15 Nevertheless leave the stump of his roots in the earth, even with a band of iron and brass, in the tender grass of the field; and let it be wet with the dew of heaven, and let his portion be with the beasts in the grass of the earth:

16 Let his heart be changed from man’s, and let a beast’s heart be given unto him; and let seven times pass over him.

This shows the restoration of that early Church and its glory, the second witness: 34 And at the end of the days I Nebuchadnezzar lifted up mine eyes unto heaven, and mine understanding returned unto me, and I blessed the most High, and I praised and honoured him that liveth for ever, whose dominion is an everlasting dominion, and his kingdom is from generation to generation:

35 And all the inhabitants of the earth are reputed as nothing: and he doeth according to his will in the army of heaven, and among the inhabitants of the earth: and none can stay his hand, or say unto him, What doest thou?

36 At the same time my reason returned unto me; and for the glory of my kingdom, mine honour and brightness returned unto me; and my counsellors and my lords sought unto me; and I was established in my kingdom, and excellent majesty was added unto me.

chapter 5 shows the carnal condition of the seven churches in Rev. it shows they turned from God to idols. drunkedness and partying. till the judgment of God strikes it.

this is the day of Pentecost: Daniel 6 King James Version (KJV)

6 It pleased Darius to set over the kingdom an hundred and twenty princes, which should be over the whole kingdom;

the rest of this chapter shows them conspiring against Jesus to have him killed. It shows the crucifixion. and of course resurrection.

That is Jesus! He slayed Adam.

A stone cut without hands? Jesus is that stone.

absolutely. but really it is the Christ, the resurrected one.

By:  Jo Smith. …. July 5, 2021

He passed this way

He passed this way

By:  Jo Smith. .. .  June 26, 2023

He passed by my door and I saw him no more.

No matter how hard I tried

No matter how much I cried

He continued down that road.

Now my heart carries a heavy load.

How did I miss this most glorious chance?

How can I now advance?

Without Him in my life

I will only find trouble and strife.

Will He pass this way one more time?

Will he yet give me His love Divine?

I will go and seek Him with all my heart.

If I find Him again, I will never let him depart.

Others come and go, this I well know.

The loss of them does not hurt so.

But to lose Him is more than all of them.

To Miss this one glorious chance is death to the soul.

It is as if my everything they stole.

How then shall I be made whole?

My heart cries out, Return to me

My life is no good without thee. 

Where shall I look?  Is He down by the brook?

Did He ascend up on High?

I can’t find him no matter how I try.

Wait!  Wait!  This cannot be my fate!

I hope it is not too late.

Is that His glorious voice?

He will forever be my first choice. 

Yes, Yes!  It is He!  He has heard my cry.

I will to him fly.

Rejoice, Rejoice oh my soul.  This is the wonderful Day.

My blessed Savior has returned back my way.

I will hold him close and never let go.

The more I know Him the more I love him so.

Rejoice with me;  He came by my door one more time.

He is the joy and life of mine.  

Rachel, a child of faith

This is Rachel Viola Smith. This is her story.

~~~~~~~ Her Birth ~~~~~~~~

Several months ago I felt led of God to write about my little girl, Rachel. But I had so much else to do that I forgot about this. Yesterday it came back to me that I should do this message. So now, with the help of my Lord, I will try to remember as much of the great things as I can.

Rachel was a child of faith even before her birth. In my fourth month of pregnancy I was sitting in a swing just relaxing. All of a sudden I felt God’s Holy Presence come near. Then He spoke to me and said, I want you to name the baby Rachel. I was very trilled with this. So I told my husband and other girls what God had said to me. This was before doctors could tell you the sex of the child before birth.

A short while after this, our new home, which was only two years old at this time caught fire and burned up. Due to my pregnancy I could not help with the cleaning up of the mess. Afterwards, we bought a double-wide and placed back there.

Shortly after this my whole family became very ill. We all felt we were dying. This was very unusual for my girls to be sick. At the time we had three girls. After being treated for the flu several rounds, the doctor finally caught on that we had carbon monoxide poisoning. They had failed to open the vent for the heater.

We were very worried if this would have effected the baby. We were concerned for this the rest of the time until she was born.

In my eighth month, I was resting on the bed one day. Again I felt God come near me. This time He said to me, I want you to name the baby Viola; this is my Mother’s name.

Stupidly, my husband and I continued to search for a name for a boy if the baby should be a boy. But we never did find a name which suited us. No wonder! God had already told me what to name HER.

My oldest child wanted me to name her Rachel Dawn. But I said No, I must name her what God told me to. Some day you may have a little girl and use that name. She did.

This message will be too long for one post. So I will do it in sections.

The time of her birth was very spiritual. My husband carried me to the hospital early in the day. But I had almost no labour all day. Finally at bed time, he had to leave to get the other girls to sleep; they were in school.

Almost as soon as he left, I felt hard labour hit me. I rang the bell to get a nurse. She came in and examined me. I asked for something for the pain. She would not give it, for she said I was no where near ready. She said I had dilated only a small amount and the baby was still much too high.

I said to God, Lord Jesus please help me; for they will not help me. Immediately I felt the baby start to be born. I normally am a shy person and would not do this kind of thing; but I knew I had to; I rang the bell again. It was a good thing I moved to do it right then; for I would never have been able to even a moment later.

The nurse said she had not even walked away from my door. She saw the light come back on and came back into the room. I told her the baby is coming. She said well let me see. When she checked, she was astonished to see the baby coming. She called for another nurse to help her. But they did not have time to move me. The other nurse only came into the room and stood there transfixed. In a moment Rachel was born, making only sweet little sounds. No screaming.

The nurse laid her on my stomach. I looked at her and fell in love.

Rachel’s first two years ~~~~~~~~

From the very start Rachel was the sweetest person I have ever known. She never cried or fussed as many children do. Even if she was hurt she would only cry a moment. She showed more love than anyone I have ever known. She was just unusual from the very beginning. My husband, children and I loved her so very much. She was the delight of our lives. My others girls were almost grown when Rachel was born.

Rachel seemed to love everyone. She never met a stranger. She gave love to everyone. It really amazed me. I think how Mary and Joseph must have marveled at Jesus.

Even as a toddler she loved Jesus. I taught her out of the Word of God. After she could talk, she spoke of Jesus regularly. She would beg me to read the Word to her. She sang songs about Jesus all the time. Anytime someone asked her to sing, it would be about Jesus.

When Rachel was around two years old, I had a dream that she ate some giblets of paper and choked to death. This troubled me very much. A short time later I dreamed of going to a lovely place where some beautiful flowers were blooming; a stream of water ran by. I was walking on the side of this place. I saw some children around the age of eight to ten playing so peacefully and happily together. As I watched, a lovely girl who looked to be eight years old ran out to them. They seemed so happy to see her and welcomed her lovingly. She began to play with them. I saw that they were never tired or afraid; for nothing could hurt them.

I was amazed at this dream. It felt so spiritual; yet I had no understanding of what it could mean. A few weeks later, I again dreamed of seeing these children playing around this beautiful stream of water. Some of the children were bad; and kept on the other side of the stream. Sometimes they would try to get across to where the good children were playing; but the angels would tell them they could not go over there until they learned to be good. This truly amazed my mind.

Then Wanna , one of my other daughters had a dream that Rachel was run over and killed. Then Rhonda, another daughter had a dream that Rachel was run over and killed. By this time Becky, the oldest was married.

That winter, snow and ice was on the ground. Wanna and her boy friend (later her husband, Mark) were walking with Rachel down the road. A neighbor came by, he began sliding on the ice and almost ran over Rachel. Wanna snatched her up and managed to get her out of the way. She told me he came within inches of hitting Rachel. Satan was after her life.

Only a short while after this, my husband died, leaving me with three children to finish raising. Rachel was only two years old.

She was upset at her daddy’s dying. She seemed to understand as no two year old should be able to do. She was always much wiser than her years. In fact as she grew, she showed more wisdom than anyone I knew.

Once she had the flu. At that time many people we knew had it and were sick for at least a week or longer. Wanna tried to give Rachel some medicine; but she refused it. She said, “Wanna I do not need medicine. Jesus will heal me.” Sure enough, the next day she was well. She had great faith.

Anything which came up, she would say, Jesus will make it alright.

Her next four years ~~~~~

When Rachel was four years old, I met B.L., my second husband. She and he loved each other from the start. He loved God also; and we studied the Scriptures day and night together. Rachel loved the Word of God. I taught her to read out of the Scriptures. I never read her bible stories; I read her the Word. Once I read her the book of Job. She just loved it and begged me to read it to her again. I couldn’t imagine a child this young loving that book that much.

She was very excited over the resurrection of Lazarus. Every time I read it to her, she would dance with excitement and beg to hear it again and again. I would tell her about our eternal home with Jesus. She would be so excited over this and beg me to go on and on with it. Each time I stopped, she would beg for more.

We moved to a place close to a river. One day she and BL went down to play in the water with some friends. When they came home, he told me “Satan is after Rachel. She almost drowned.” He said she had slid down under some rocks and he almost could not get her. He was very shaken over this.

At six years of age, she wanted to be Baptized in the Name of Jesus. We took her for the Baptism. She was very excited over this. She prayed every day. At night she would not go to bed without taking her Bible with her. She put it into her bed every night.

Even before I met BL, I had started teaching her verses. At night I would quote verses and let her say them as her night prayers. She would speak them during the day and use them for any situation which came up.

I would look out the window and see Rachel sitting in the yard with the family Bible in her lap, barely able to hold it, reading it.

When she was in the second grade the teacher told me she was reading on an eighth grade level. I had taught her to read out of John.

I had taught her that the holidays are evil, devil worship things. She never wanted these things. Anything we told her was wrong, she would put it away immediately. At X-mas time, we would go into places of business and someone would ask her, ‘what is santa clause going to bring you; or what did he bring you’. She would speak up as bold as a lion, I do not believe in santa clause, I believe in Jesus’.

They just shut up; for they did not know what to do with this.

Around this time, she was sick again. A lady who came to see us at times saw she was sick and told me to take her to the doctor. Rachel told her, I do not need a doctor, Jesus will make me well. The lady was upset with this and sort of threatened me. She said, “I am coming back tomorrow and if that child is not well, I will report you to the authorities.” Rachel told her, “My Jesus always makes me well. I do not take medicine.”

The next day the lady came back. She took one look at my well Rachel, out playing and just left too ashamed to say anything.

Rachel began to tell BL and me how spirits came to her and talked to her. She said at night when she lay down, they would come into the room with her and tell her things. She said when she played, a black spirit would come and tell her to do bad things. She would tell him no. Then a white spirit would come and tell her to do good things. We did not teach her this; it came to her.

A battle was going on over Rachel. She had too much boldness for a child; she had too much knowledge; she had too much faith; she was a great witness for Jesus. She showed too much love to too many people. Satan was after Rachel.

More about Rachel ~~~~~~~

Rachel was a very kind, tender person. She could not stand to see anyone or anything hurt. This showed me she had the spirit of good in her.

Even from the time she could talk, she would speak from one birthday to the next of her birthday. She was more obsessed with this than anyone I ever know. BL and I were amazed at how she spoke of her birthday the whole year round. That is until she had her eighth birthday; after this birthday, she never spoke of it again. BL and I often commented about this to each other; how she had quit speaking of her birthday.

She had a thing of saying let me do a thing while I can. It really amazed me. She would say, “let me go see Grandma while I can” or let me go see Wanna while I can”. Wanna was married now and had her two children. Becky had two children. Rachel loved her little nieces and nephews so very much. They were only a little younger than she was.

She spoke often of desiring to grow up and have her own children and dressing them. She seemed overly obsessed with this to be so young.

Then she would say, I never got to do such and such a thing. I would tell her, Well Rachel, you are still very young; you will get to do these things in the years to come. But she would just look sad and shake her head. It really puzzled me.

Along about the time of her sixth year, I had a dream which really tormented me. I dreamed that Rhonda, my other daughter, was riding on a horse in front of two men who were on horses; each riding single file through a woods. I watched in horror. I saw the two men very clearly. Rhonda came to a fallen log; I saw despair cross her face; for she knew she could not jump safely over the log. But the two men behind her would not let her turn around. She knew she had to jump; yet she knew she could not make it. I watched in horror as she attempted the jump.

She fell to the ground and I saw her very clearly laying there. I knew she was dead; I knew her neck was broken.

As I have had hundreds of dreams come to pass just as I dreamed them, this one left me horrified. I told it to BL. He told me a few days later that God had shown him that it was not Rhonda, but Rachel. I just could not accept this.

At this time Rhonda was in Texas in the Army. Rhonda and Rachel looked just alike except for the hair color.

As a result of this, we became very over-protective of Rachel. A neighbor used to come over and ride her on his horse; she loved this. But we became afraid because of this dream and stopped this.

Then Rachel began to be obsessed with the desire for her breasts to grow. She commented often to BL and me that her breasts had not grown any. We would tell her tenderly that she was not old enough. I told her, when you are a few years older they will grow. It reached a point this was said almost every day. I have never seen a child this young so concerned with this.

Rachel loved to ride on our tractor; we stopped this out of fear of maybe this being the warning. During that last few months she lived, this dream tormented me more and more. I prayed and prayed and begged God not to let it happen. But I could not stop the torment. BL reached a point he was tired of my speaking of it and told me not to say anymore about it. Well, this hurt me for I had to speak of it. So I did not speak of it anymore to him; but it kept tormenting me just the same; more and more with each passing day.

I prayed and prayed about it –All to no avail.

Then I had a dream that Rhonda came home; she was wearing a black and white dress. We held each other in our arms and cried as if our soul would come out. I had never felt such intense grief. When I awoke, I told this dream to BL. I said, I don’t know what it is; but I know something horrible is about to happen.

Rachel’s death ~~~~~~~~

Rachel was born on Jan. 10, 1974. From her third birthday until her eighth birthday, she talked of her birthday continuously. After her eighth birthday, she never spoke of it again. This amazed BL and me.

She spoke often of her desire to grow up and have her own children and to dress them. That is until the summer of 1982. During this summer, she changed and began to tell me that she wished she could stay a little girl forever and by my little girl forever. This amazed me since she had been so vehemently wanting to grow up.

She became obsessed with this desire for her breasts to grow. One day in early September, 1982, We were sitting at the table. Rachel seemed unusually sad (she was always a happy, smiling, laughing, child).

She said, “Daddy, my breasts still have not grown any.” She pulled up her little shirt to show him. He told her tenderly, “ Darling, your breasts will grow in a few years; you are still too young.”

She looked him straight in the eyes and said in a matter-of-factly, sad voice, “No, Daddy. They will never grow”.

After that she never spoke of it again. This struck a cord of sadness in my heart. I did not know why.

Rachel was forever writing me little love notes. I would find them everywhere.

BL had two little boys who had died in young childhood. He had told her of them. I had two little boys who had died at birth. Rachel spoke of these four children very frequently; she talked of them as if she knew them personally and seemed to play with them. It really amazed us. This was an on going thing. During the summer of 1982, this was almost each day.

She talked of these four children as if they were her closest friends. This child was a very unusual child.

Rachel had started the third grade. She went three weeks. She developed a boil on one of her fingers. It was very sore. For a few days she could not eat. She told me the day of Sept. 20, “Mama, I have gotten to where I can’t eat”. I said, Yes I have noticed that.

The next day, we took her shopping for a note book and I bought her a coloring book. We all loved to color in her books. I still have them.

The next day, Sept. 22, 1982, as Rachel waited for the school bus, ( she loved for me to stand in the door until she was on the bus: she would continuously call ‘bye’ to me)– this morning I watched for a few minutes; she kept calling, bye.

I was tired, so I went and laid back down. I felt a strange sadness pull from her to my heart. It puzzled me.

This is almost too sad for me to keep writing this. But I want so much to finish her story.

Pray for me.

This is the first time I have cried over Rachel in years.

That day her teacher called me and told me to come and get her for her finger was hurting. BL was not home at the time, so I told her I would call him and get him to pick her up on the way home. As I reached for the phone to dial him, God spoke to me in that still, small voice and said, Don’t do that.

Well, it was such a small voice that I paid no attention. People, this and other times I paid dearly for disobedience is one thing which proves to me that this is truly the voice of God speaking to me.

He picked her up; then they went somewhere together. I was sewing her a new school out-fit. I told them I would join them in a little while.

Wanna called me on the phone and we talked a while. I did not realize how much time had passed. I had told them I would come and bring them something to drink and eat.

Well, when I arrive where they had gone, cars were up and down that road as far as I could see. I knew immediately that something bad had happened to one of them.

BL came to me crying. He said Rachel had been run over. She was still on the ground when I arrived. After they left with her, I went into the little building there; I could not pray for Rachel to live; for in my heart I knew she would not. I prayed for God to do what was best for Rachel. When I said that I knew she was dead.

When the school bus went by my house that evening, my baby was dead. I had disobeyed the voice of God. It is a dangerous thing to disregard this still small voice; which some people sneer at my hearing.

My soul is in great grief as I write these words.

This many years later, My soul longs for my sweet little girl. The tears are flowing so much, I have to wait to finish this.

Rhonda came home from Texas. When she arrived, she and I held each other in our arms and cried that horrible cry I had dreamed. Don’t tell me God does not still give prophetical dreams! She wore a black and white dress to Rachel’s funeral. Don’t tell me!

Two weeks later as Wanna came to visit me, I was telling her of the sweet love notes I continued to find from Rachel. I went into my bedroom to get something; when I opened my desk, there were two notes from Rachel. She had written them the last night she lived and placed them there for me to find in my hours of grief.

In these notes she had thanked me for her note book and the coloring book; which had not been used. I still have them. Then I found a drawing of her, BL and me. She had written a story of us.

As I sat there talking about Rachel to Wanna, all of a sudden God flashed that dream from years back of little eight year old children playing happily together; He said to me, that is where she is now; that was her which ran out to play with them; the one you saw arrive there in that lovely place.

People as God is true—- as He is my witness—— every word of this is the truth. I would certainly not make up stuff about my darling girl and her life and death.

Now for more: when the man who had run over my baby came to see me, IT WAS THE MAN WHO HAD BEEN RIDING THAT HORSE BEHIND RHONDA IN MY DREAM TWO YEARS BEFORE. THE OTHER MAN WHO WAS ON THE OTHER HORSE, WAS IN THE TRUCK WITH HIM.

As God is my witness, they both looked exactly as they had looked in that dream. I would have known them!! That is how true these spiritual gifts still are. People, My God is still Real. He is still speaking to His people in dreams and visions. Don’t doubt. Seeks Him while He may be found.

For over two years, I went through intense grief and suffering; only God knows how much my soul hurt and grieved. I sometimes went into the woods and laid down; hoping a poison snake would come along and bite me. She and I used to play some games in creeks. I would go and want to play the games and say to her; Come on Rachel; let’s float our little boats.

As I went to do it the first time — God spoke to me and said “Don’t do this”. It was that small still voice again. Again I disobeyed. I wanted so much to relive our playing together. Well I can tell you, I did not do that again. The grief which tore through me, only God knows!!!!! How much I wanted to die also.!

For over two years this went on. I did not seek relief from it; for I wanted to grieve for her. To me she was worth suffering over.

Finally, I knew I could not take it anymore; so I asked God to deliver me. He showed me each time the grief started, to focus on the resurrection when I would see her again. This stopped the suffering. Shortly after her death, I had dreamed of seeing her in the casket; I had stood over her and watched her open her beautiful eyes, look up at me and say in that special way she had of saying, “Moma, Moma”.

Now, it all makes sense: her obsession with wanting to do things while she could; her grieving over things she never got to do; her desire to have her children; her breasts to grow—- something inside her knew she NEVER WOULD.

BL told me that she had come to him three different times and told him she would never be NINE. This is why she had quit speaking of her birthday; something inside her knew it would never come.

It was a utility truck which ran over her. People, I could have been rich if I had sued them. But I did not. A lawyer friend wanted to sue for half a million dollars. I would not. Their lawyer came to see me; he told me I probably would have gotten it; I told him they did not have enough money I would trade for my child’s life. His eyes filled with tears as I said that. God told me you cannot serve God and mammon. I would not want to face Rachel on the other side and have to say I profited off your death.

Lots of people have told me I was crazy to do this: but I had to obey God. I had to forgive this man for killing my child then lying about it.

When I spoke to the doctor who examined Rachel at the hospital, I asked him specifically if her neck was broken; for that is what had been shown me in that dream. He told me yes.

Matt. 2: 18–In Rama was there a voice heard, lamentation, and weeping, and great mourning, Rachel weeping for her children, and would not be comforted because THEY ARE NOT.

Jeremiah 31:15–Thus saith the LORD; A voice was heard in Ramah, lamentation, and bitter weeping: Rachel weeping for her children refused to be comforted for her children, because they were not.

v16–Thus saith the LORD; Refrain thy voice from weeping, and thine eyes from tears: for thy work shall be rewarded, saith the LORD; and they shall come again from the land of the enemy. (death is the enemy).

v17–and there is hope in thine end, saith the LORD, that thy children shall come again to their own border.

I found this after Rachel’s death. Then I understood her grief that she would never grow up and have her children which she longed so much to have. She never would. Some kind of way, she fits this thing. Some kind of way what happened to her shows all of this.

This is speaking of those boy babies killed by Herod at the time of Jesus’ birth. But this shows they will come again to their own border. They are playing there in that beautiful land with my Rachel, Eric, and Criss, my babies; and BL Jr. and Robert those babies she loved without having seen. They are all there together.

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I know this is long; but I hope you all will take the time to read it; and that in her death, Rachel is still giving out her sweet love.

People who lived below us came to me after her death and told me that every time they passed my house, she would run down toward the road and wave at them. I had not known that. A man who runs a train had seen her out one day with BL and said there is my little sweetheart; each time I go by, she runs up toward the road and waves to me.

She was full of Love for everyone and for Jesus.

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Baby, you are still a blessing to all.

Your Mother still loves you with all my heart and soul.

Rachel died on September 22, 1982, having lived only eight years, and eight months.

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I will see you again, in the morning, My Darling, in that great resurrection day. 
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